The happy moment

... is when I´m floating in a good story. Or experiencing physical things in the present, like laughing, eating, walking or listening to music. Hah. Now, what then? I have returned to my blog, and have to write something! It is expected!
Let me tell you about my life since last time.

I passed the exams. I lived on the brink of poverty all summer, but it was sunshine most of the time, my family had all we needed to be happy and I thought a lot. About my work, my life and the truth about everything. Felina is now on her journey among publishers. The Knights of Dor on their journey in the digital world, the stories can be bought for a song and seventeen crowns on Itunes. Miranda is changed, I have made sketches of most of the story called "The Monster Inside". The small film we made in my student group has been put up on the hundred-year birthday of NTNU, my university, and it was great. I am going to write my master thesis about something Fantasy/Fantastic/Fiction/Truth/Trans-art.
My children, my two beautiful boys are now grown-ups. They have moved out. I love them, and I´m happy for them. Sometimes it´s hard to become independent. They need money sometimes, and to hear they´re missed and still loved.

I´m kind of floating along, I don´t know exactly what I want. I feel so very young sometimes. The child in me exists along with the crone in me, and the mother? My motherhood is different, I am a new kind of mother. The role has changed somewhat. Who am I? I used to think about myself as an artist. The school teaches me to see myself as a critic, a hunter for the truth, a person with power to discard and elevate stories. The small jobs I´m offered puts me in a position as a teacher of story-telling.

What will the future bring? I need to believe in something.